unbelievable

All I wanted to here from you was, is everything okey? Is that too complicated? but its too hard for you to even do that. Because you had to overact again over something stupid. You just don't care enough. you right we wasted each others time.

nobody singin to me by charice

Everytime you go
Im in the shadows
Everyday you know
The pain inside grows

Without you i lose the way
Fall apart, go insane
Used to be hiding inside the TV
Lately thats not really workin for me

No one with anything to say
Not to me, not to me
On and on and on
The days drawn
I need a song

What to do
Tell me what i gotta do
I cant sustain
Now the way im missing you
So i turn the radio up
Looking for a melody
But nobody's singing to me

Its a blur dont remember what i heard
You say goodbye now i dont know where to turn
So i turn the radio up
Thinking im gon' find relief
But baby nobody's singing for me

Every night im just a victim of the silent
Nothing there to help
I tell you love is violent
Hurts more and more with each day
If you are asking me
Life is pain

Use to be that i could call on my DJ
Tell him what it is that he could play play play
Play those words, i wanna sing along
Make me feel, nothing is wrong

What to do
Tell me what i gotta do
I cant sustain
Now the way im missing you
So i turn the radio up
Looking for a melody
But nobody's singing to me

Its a blur dont remember what i heard
You say goodbye now i dont know where to turn
So i turn the radio up
Thinking im gon' find relief
But baby nobody's singing

What i need right now is a beam of light
A single ray of sun
A vioce in the dark
Cause its been so long
I cant feel it whoa ho
I need somewhere to belong
I need a song

What to do
Tell me what i gotta do
I cant sustain ?
Now the way Im missing you
So i turn the radio up
Looking for a melody
But nobody's singing to me

Its a blur dont remember what i heard
You say goodbye now i dont know where to turn
So i turn my ipod up
Thinking im gon' find relief
But baby nobody's singing for me

What to do
Tell me what i gotta do
I cant sustain
Now the way im missing you
So i turn the radio up
Looking for a melody
But nobody's singing to me

3 days

three days, if I was significant, I would have heard something by now. I understand

Empty canvas

Empty is the feeling Im feeling at this given moment. Its like I haven't really achieved anything. 19 years of age and I feel empty as a blank canvas that have yet to be coloured, I have friends which I believe I'm not even that close with, friends I would hang on the regular basis, its people who I kill my time with, like how much do I really know these people. Plus, With my personality, I shut and shun out people around me, shy naive and gullible and it had lead me to a long road of hardship, you girls know what I've been though. An empty canvas is not as empty if I think about the regrettable things I've done and the knowledge I gained. Im a walking proof of "live and learn" how much did I really learn? I think I've learn enough to tell myself what choices I need to make. Because I'm tired of playing the naive fool, then looking like a crazy obsessed person. But thats besides the point. But point blank, I think i've only gain knowledge through this long painful road and I do believe it was worth it, even though there were others options and experiences to gain these knowledge without having such shameful confrontations. But thats part of life. What other weights are still holding me down? yes, my best friends aren't really my best friends anymore, even though we still have that tittle, I just don't see it anymore. We are always busy and taking different path with our lives. We barely see each other to even know what even happens with each other daily lives. I think being older with different paths really break people up. Its true when people say after high school people go their separate ways. Now its just seems like we hang out with people who are at our convenient. to be continued.

I don't understand

I wish you understand how I feel, because im just hurting as much.

truth

left out and neglected. you gave me truth.