"Each new day brings w/ it a new set of lies. The worst are the ones we tell ourselves rite b4 we fall asleep. We whisper them in the dark, tellin ourselves were happy or that hes happy. That we can change or that he will change his mind. We persuade ourselves that we can liv w/ our sins or that we can liv w/o him. Each nite b4 we fall asleep we lie 2 ourselves in a desperate hope that come mornin it will all be true."
Its been such a long road for both us, Im a little sad, alittle depress, little upset, alittle disappointed and i guess a little happy. I can finally call myself a fool, to be waiting all this time. Did you know every night I sleep I would hope when i wake up everything would be back to the way it was. everymorning I would wake up to check my phone and kinda hope that I would see, "baby I really want to work things out because I love you".
Giving the hints and sign. I guess I'm more complicated than I thought. But I guess what I did was just gotten things worst or I just never got you to become the person I wanted you to be or thought you would be for me. You never really chase after me, did you realize that. I always did the chasing when it wasn't even my fault, and this time I wanted you to chase me just once. You might call that testing but I really believe that you should have done at least that. In the end it still the same. But I'm alittle happy I guess, we can both move on now right? you'll be much more happy without me. Maybe im alittle too much, I already knew when you gave up my present it was over for us. I say best wishes for both of us. Its really goodbye itsn't it. You've moved on so I will too,
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